In my childhood, I lived in Long Island in which a South Asian is just as rare as a shiny pokemon.
Everyone in school is white, black, and brown; but only the hispanic brown
Never the South Asian brown
I was the only South Asian in my class.
I didn’t go outside that much because my mom was paranoid
so I had to seclude myself into my living room watching TV
and TV has no people that look like me unless you count bollywood films but they’re made in India and I usually watch television shows that are made in the US
As a little girl, I thought that I didn’t belong in this country because there are no people that look like me in my favorite tv shows. Only in Bollywood movies that are made in India.
So, I got the lowest self-esteem in the world and I have no desire to prove my worth in school because “what’s the point of trying hard, I’m a foreigner living in this country”
This is why media representation is so important because people everywhere will truly get a sense of belonging in where they live.
I also believe the lack of media representation is the reason why I was bad in math(still am lol) in elementary school because I didn’t try hard. I just had very low self esteem. I tried my best to improve in math right now, but the numbers are getting confusing to me and already, I’m thinking to myself
the damage has already been done
Thank you media for disparaging my existence